I don’t remember having a true vision of what I wanted to be. I still don’t have a true vision, I just know I want more. I know I can do more, learn more and challenge myself more. But it’s hard to step out of my comfort zone.
I started stepping out, and the results have been worth it.
With each step I take, I learn more about myself. I learn I can do it and I meet new people that support me.
I had always wanted to play soccer. Four years ago I stepped onto a soccer field for the first time. It was so big and intimidating. I didn’t understand the game well, but what I lacked in skill I made up for in enthusiasm. I asked for help, and the younger girls on the team took me under their wing. Their patience and support made me feel like I could do it. I officially retired this year, but I’m signing up for squash lessons in April!
I have started writing more. Weekend workshops have been fun and given me the motivation to keep writing.
I realize that my identity is not about one thing, it’s about many things combined. I’m a mother, a wife, a child life specialist, a mental health professional, a writer, a crafting queen, a friend…
My sense of self continues to expand and develop with each new adventure I have, each book I read, or career change I make. The options are endless, I just have to keep going.
So I continue taking risk; I’m trying new things. I’m pushing fate, instead of waiting for the universe and circumstance to push me.
I have always been pushed, now I’m learning to leap. It’s like a roller-coaster. Thrilling yet exciting at the same time. It’s a good thing I love roller-coasters. My stomach might get queasy at times, but I still get back in line for the next ride.